12 Mar Time to heal

1 Everything has its own time, and there is time for the whole purpose under heaven.
2 There is a time to be born, and a time to die; time to plant, and time to pluck up what has been planted;
3 Time to kill, and time to heal; a time to tear down, and a time to build;
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
5 A time to scatter stones, and a time to gather stones; time to embrace, and time to move away from embracing;
Ecclesiastes, 3
“Time is an insult,” said the villain from the movie Doctor Strange. What I found curious is that he doesn’t want to take over the world, but time, and he wants to live in a place where time doesn’t exist and everyone can live forever. Time for me is not an insult, but an alarm clock. Death is an insult. Since I turned 30 I started to be afraid of death and old age.
Isabel Allende, the famous Chilean writer, wrote something beautiful in this pandemic. She said she lost her fear of death when her daughter, Paula, died in her arms of a terrible disease, many years ago. I have the book that tells this story, but I never finished reading it. I confess that I felt a huge envy of this achievement. I wanted to lose that fear too, but I haven’t managed yet.
British actress Hellen Mirren gave an interview to Allure magazine criticizing the term anti-aging and how it is put in the media. Aging cannot be seen as a disease or condition that has to be treated. It takes courage to grow old with your head held high, to make peace with the passage of time. We are a playground for him. In us, time makes the party in our skin, in our thoughts, in our convictions, in our uncertainties. we have to clean up the mess.
Last year, in the critical phase of the pandemic, I needed medicine to sleep, I had insomnia, boredom, sudden fears, night terrors. It is very easy to judge the other in uncontrolled, with pain speaking in codes. Today I try to welcome and decipher what this pain means.
Pain, where are you? In what part of the body? What do you mean?
Whether or not I was a psychotherapist, I realized that life would always give me new questions to solve. In this little world that I squeeze on my pillow, psychology, philosophy, sociology and everything that helps me to solve my questions.
Life is not a podium, it is not a vanity race. We have to have the dignity to occupy the place we have conquered. In addition, heaven is the biggest podium I want to conquer. Ironically, with the help of time and death.